I don’t have room for sympathy
For you
Or empathy
It’s been torture
All these times going round my head
Through cycles of anger and apologetic sorrow
I can’t do it anymore
Not today, not tomorrow
I cared too much
And you walk over me like I’m dirt on your shoe
I’m supposed to feel for you
“He’s ill” they say
Well, I can’t care anymore!
Get the fuck away!
GET THE FUCK AWAY
Told myself I was okay
But now it’s too late in the day
To espouse such nonsense
When I know in my heart of hearts
I don’t want any of these things
Nothing. Not even the guitars
Or the TV.
I don’t want the music playing
In my ears
I just have it on for noise.
I don’t want any of this
Inspired by a story I’ve been working on for a couple of years now, comes the following poetry:
The world is a sheet of hazy blue
but that still won’t keep me from you
oceans wide, oceans apart
where did we depart?
Why, Jessica, are the jitter bugs in you
when you’re having the time of your life
watching me trying to ignite
do you see I’m just a dragonfish
blind, but trying to become light?
I can’t find my place
even among misfits
want out of this race
got no path I can see to trace
and I don’t think I can
be the man
I thought I wanted to be anyway
courage is not known by me
he’s simply a stranger I know I could never be
I don’t want to live inside myself
I’m my own misfortune, my own hell
sometimes I dare to think I could even dream
but then I fall back down to earth
and I see
I am not the man I sought to be
And I wish taking a life would be easier
because one more day inside this skin
is just endless torture.
These broken parts
Frayed hearts
I feel it all
Take it as my own
Rocking like a child
On a rocking horse
Trying to ease everyone’s bleeding wounds
Upon my flesh
Lash after lash
A scar to seal what’s passed
Wondering which will be the last
© Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 September
I won’t say a word
Of what passed
Our lips
A secret kiss
Between
The cracks
In the foundations
Of the walls we built
To go AWOL, to go amiss
Only to find we were not missed
Trying to be lonesome wholesome
Putting bitter in our twist
Trying to become misplaced
Only to find it was too late
We’d already been mislaid
© Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 September
My love has no potential
Trapped in my heart
Only the sky and I
Strictly confidential
Loving you from afar
I love you
It hurts
Take my breath away
Let me die in your arms
Dowse me in your scent
Unburden me
From this torment
© Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 Sept
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Suspended aspirations
tearing at the smiles foundations
trying to rid oneself of expectations
lest it all fall through to more desolation
Left floating in between, wasted
slowly becoming weightless
Detached, faceless
donning masks while being annihilated
© Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 August
The sun rises
And I’ve had a night of it
Turning the sheets
the way of turmoil
feeling beat
And I won’t rise again
Feeling the sun rays penetrate
the gaps between the blinds and the sill
and I lay still
waiting…
Waiting with time I don’t even want to kill
hoping I can win out
Against natural urges
just lay here alone, hidden
No one hear a word or a breath
Just lay here trying to be dead
© Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 August
Screams soar to a whisper
gliding through the wind
riding my own purple storm
Languid from the useless pursuits
Pink symphonies
filling skies anew
Waves lapping at my feet
Letting go of me letting go of you
©Silverbackgorillapoetry 2016 August
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