Your absence rings
In my ears
As if
Every voice
Not yours
Is a gunshot
Reverberating
In my skull
Your absence lingers
In every musical interval
As if
Every note
Sustains your existence
Behind my eyes
Yet my mind’s eye
Continues to blur you
As if you’re fading, still
Not quite a ghost, but not quite true
A shadow
I must hold onto.
As the orchestra plays it’s song
your absence is in every note
your absence is in every tone
You’ve become the music
Something I can’t touch
The music is the memory
Of you being here with me
And it hurts.
You were so small
And the biggest thing in my life
Now your absence follows me
I am not the same.
I cannot carry this burden
But I will not let you go
Your absence is all I have left to hold
That day is a shard of time
A splinter in the heart
My emptiness is full tonight
As the sun sets just out of sight
I picture you coming home
But it’s too late
No time for goodbyes
Gone in the blink of an eye
And the sky doesn’t care
Cause the clouds aren’t here
Raining like it ought to be
Heavy breath full of empty
It’s hard to breathe
When you can see
The world is continuing
Without you
And my world is nothing
Cause it revolved around you
I want the rain
Raining over me
Dilute these tears
Before I disintegrate
I want the rain
Let it rain over me
It’s not raining like it ought to be
Your absence gets heavier
In the sun
I need to go somewhere dark
To let this burden go
From my heart
But I don’t want to say goodbye
So I carry you
Under the sun
Time fills the season
But I’m all out of reasons
I’m a tree that never recovered
From the fall
So I carry you
under the sun
I’ll always carry you
Under the sun
I resent how time
Doesn’t stop
When all should be still
To remember you
I resent how breaths
Can be seen in the cold
Life continuing
As if to be so bold
Like you were never even here
How the wind howls against the windows
As if to threaten to shatter warmth
Even though I’m already cold
As I imagine you are, somewhere out there
Cold, and already so old
As if time hastened its arrival
Letting you go
So chronologically young.
Send a message to the world
Whisper in her ears
Let my care for her be heard
I need her to know
She’s my best friend
And i’m so sad to see her go
Send a message to the world
Let her know i’m looking out for her
Tell her that even though i’m not there
I will always care
And if I could, i’d be everywhere
Just so I could be with her.
Send a message to the world
I’m sorry for how we parted
Tell her, I love her.
The village swallowed you whole
And you became strangers
To the tribe you used to know
Even the best friends
As you spat on your hands and shook
A promise of brotherhood
Now everything quakes
In the balance
You thought friendship
Was made in stone
Your pride is hard to swallow
When your undoing was your own
Now you’ve a heart shaped hole
Waiting on the beating
Of another
