We have battles with our demons
Our own wars in our heads
Blood, sweat and tears today are still shed
But instead of world war
It’s hell inside our minds
With all of these tyrants
Pulling the wool over our eyes
We see him in the mirror
But we don’t look
We think the enemy is someone else
And that’s why you miss your own left hook
The enemy is within us
And to think he can be defeated
Is a lie we’re sold
All we can do is keep fighting
Some days we’ll win
But the fight is never over
Until you take your last swing.
demons
Internal scream
Bubbling to the brink
Cracking to the sound
Of my lips creak
Devouring dinner
With a familiar longing
for something more substantial
In retrospect
Realising
I am my own downfall
Surrendering to my own shock
Shattering my reflection
With my internal scream
Gargoyles grin
Plucked from the gargoyles grin
My insanity pleas for a place at the inn
Doctors tried voyeurism
Into my mind
But they couldn’t hack the skeletons
I have behind my eyes
I found solace in that monstrosities grin
A sanctuary from the barbarian within
Beauty & the beast
For all I’ve done
I see the monster I’ve become
And in the speed of light
I’m struck dumb
Nowhere to go
Just a beast
In human clothes
The scales upon my back
Sharpened anticipating attack
Claws dig down
Finding roots to cling to
As I froth at the mouth
Taking a bite from rotten apples
Maggots abound
Eyes black shielding a soul behind
But there’s an ocean inside
Trying to figure out
What it is to be human
I observe them all
And even I
Always fall in love with someone
I shroud my face
And take a dagger to my heart
In beauty I have no place
So I’ll stand apart
© SilverbackGorilla Poetry.
2015
Faceless
I’m taking on my demons role
staring him in the face
I take a step back
Sharpening my knife
I reject the monsters bark
Cutting his mask
From my face
It’s been sewn on
And underneath
I become no one
Which is a new monster
In of itself
What have I done
I stare at my nothingness
Mouth gaping open
Without a sound
But I can hear my scream
Inside my labyrinth
Who am I
What am I meant to be?
(c) Jan 2016