I’m a frazzle of lion’s tooth blow me away and ya find flotsam growin’ roots me thumbs trapped betwixt me braces as I play chicken by nobody’s rules careenin’ as I mean to run round sharpest corners stragglin’ offshoots on the stems of me breath a rattle of nettles and neurosis I’ve become the urbans wilds no doubt I’ll be soon be eaten by the jaws of machines at the behest of the councils’ wiles after runnin’ feral, labeled ‘surplus to requirements.’
Highways of buttercups and daisy chains yellowed the green earth, the sun scorched upon us a new dawn and sunflowers raised and turned their heads with worship, eating its fill of rays.
Ice cream vans sing their siren call, we chase it beneath treacled air like pavlov’s dogs our tongues lolling out from our mouths.
The benches were stocked full of couples, purchasing a kiss from the sun
Mothmen spread their wings the wild in us felt the breath of them Lollipops muddied where we left blueberry gasps rushed from blue tongues corn syrup unhinged us sugarcane legs our boots tracked sepia fabric conditioned into terror monsters had plagued the washin’ line
No one is free I thought the wings of truth split into papers cogs in the engine shredding that to which we bear witness turning what we knew into something shiny and new to fill this emptiness Sunday morning lie-ins our only day in which we don’t have to strive and I thought this, this is the price people think they have to pay for freedom and so I ask What is freedom anyway? But some elusive dream we’re free to chase?
From a distance, it looked like a forest but upon closer inspection, you came to rows and rows of houses that became known as the tree houses not because they were the old traditional treehouses of old, but for their mimicry with their green pointed roofs.
Some people claimed the place is beautiful but I have to politely disagree. Though politeness may get me nowhere when the truth was so ugly.
Perhaps I should have pushed harder, derailed them from their illusions of utopia.
The roofs were plastic green and not a bird was in sight, the water that surrounded these damnable houses did not contain fish. There was no wildlife to be seen, and the doors of the house opened up like the mouths of monsters consuming all tenants who moved into them.
Many a house was haunted, not with the imagined ghosts but with the debris of collected psyches. The human form of the tenants may have left the houses but they were never the same, the houses had consumed them from within. The houses were tyrants and no one left them upon their own whim, they could only leave when the houses spat them out.
In one such house, an empty chair rocked, animated by a previous tenants anxieties.
Pictures hung in jaunty angles on the walls and the eyes of previous paranoid tenants peered through from behind the frame, though those men had left, their eyes never would.
The stairs creaked as you stumbled up them, or so it seemed. But that creaking sound was not the faux wooden floorboards, it was the sound of a madman. His essence, his humanity had been absorbed into the walls and his many cries and voices spoke for the house.
That drowsy space between clarity and blur a clear blue sky inside the spacious open plains inside the mind every breath a wave in the ocean that is the collection of cells that is you room enough in heart to ride the tidal waves with grace learning to surf remembering the simple truth that we all die in the end so the meaning we seek is the thing that holds us back
I’m not typical
certainly not biblical
though my name suggests miracles
I like to think my faults are forgivable
But that only seems to make my rage more formidable
I am hardly statistical
I can find myself in numbers
Maybe I am mythical
The pinnacle of invisible
My evidence not admissible
I was born cynical
Or, difficult?
Sometimes my thoughts are unthinkable
I’m always at the periphery of transitional
Lost in the middle…
I almost hesitate
Now that I’m in this place
All the sick faces
Looking at me
I just want to run away
“Why are you putting yourself through this?”
I know I’ve been waiting for years
And I don’t want to go back
But I don’t really want to be here
I just want to leap straight
To the aftermath
With out all of these medicated plans
I’m tired from barely sleeping
Thinking about it
Wondering if I can make it through this
Feel like I’ve walked under another dark tunnel
And I can’t yet see the end
There are lights on the ceiling
But that all seems meaningless
They’re dully lit anyway
And the faces around me look like ghosts
Reminding me this is a place where souls come to go