Part 3: There goes the Wub

Jackson woke to find the green sleeping bag beside him was empty. The sound of hooves clopping spurred him onto his feet; he ran out of the shack, shielding his eyes from the light of day. ‘Ya were gonna leave, jus’ like that?’ He snapped his fingers.

‘I dunno what’t’ tell yer, I’m a loner.’

‘Ya weren’t much a loner las’ night!’ Jackson spat bitterly.

‘Well, I am t’day.’

Merrick sat in the saddle, and Tucker started walking up and away from the shack at a slow trot, ‘I’ll be seein’ ya around.’ Merrick twisted himself around and saluted down to Jackson, ‘Am sure I’ll be back at some point.’

‘Well, there ent far’t’ go round in circles in this god forsaken place!’

‘True,’ Merrick turned Tucker around so he was facing Jackson again, saluting him again, ‘True enough, Jack.’

‘But then, ‘ow come we never met ‘fore?’ Jackson jutted his chain.

‘I’ve passed through ‘fore. Probably jus’ din’t notice one another tha’s all.’ Merrick picked up the reigns and spun Tucker back the other way.

‘Think I’d notice if ya rode on ‘im ‘fore now.’ Jackson intoned.

‘Ya’d be amazed at’t’ things we miss.’ Merrick slapped Tucker’s neck gently, and they trotted away.

Merrick had been riding for a straight hour on the track, changing terrain from concrete to dust and back. He reached a narrowing dusty path, and ahead of him was a little house on a dead farm.

As Tucker and Merrick approached, a man dressed in all white came walking out, a woman behind him with a shotgun.

‘Now ya stop reet there!’ The man held a palm up to Merrick. He looked up at Merrick on Tucker with a stony face.

‘’E got them devil eyes, Ize.’ The man talked to the woman behind him from one side of his mouth.

‘Jus’ the one.’ Merrick corrected him as he dismounted.

The woman’s left eye twitched on an attractive face, but she had a very short neck making it look like her head was attached directly to her shoulders.

The man’s neck leant to one side, and he seemed unable to move his head. His eyes shifted up and down as he took in the scene. ‘Ya shall not pass!’ He spat, ‘Not with the devil eyed ‘orse of yours!’

‘An’ who made you gatekeeper of’t road?’ Merrick met the man’s steely face.

‘It’s the devil eye,’ The woman said, ‘Tell, ‘im Frank! It’s that devils eye!’

The woman stepped forward with the gun, jutting it in the air, ‘I will shoot! I will shoot that devil ‘orse reet ‘fore ya eyes!’ A crazed look in her eyes.

Merrick could see she was serious, her finger trigger ready.

‘Okay, okay!’ Merrick held up his hands and got back in the saddle, spinning Tucker around, ‘We’re leavin’’ he said, looking straight ahead, never looking back.

‘Don’t shoot,’ He called back again, ‘I’m goin’’ He continued until he was some distance away.

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‘Fancy seein’ you back in these parts so soon!’ Jackson beamed up at him.

Merrick dismounted from Tucker, ‘Yea, there was a crazy lady with a gun.

Jackson placed a hand on the flank of Tucker gently with one hand, a gun in his other hand, ‘I oughta shoot ya right between ya eyes.’ Jackson spat bitterly.

Merrick turned squarely, ‘Can ya not jus’ pistol whip me across t’ face?’

Jackson held up the gun and mimed shooting him, ‘I really oughta.’ He shook his head, ‘Ya came on ‘ere, fucked me some, then jus’ up an’ left like that’s how ya treat another man.’

Merrick lit up a cigarette casually, ‘What did ya think would ‘appen?’

‘I jus’ want a liddle respec’ is all.’

‘Ya know, I missed ya while I was gone those few hours.’ Merrick told him while he looked Tucker over, ‘Ya got any water for Tuck?’

Jackson lowered the gun by his side, ‘Sure, there should be some in’t stable.’

Merrick and Jackson smoked, fucked and smoked some more till night glared in through the window of the little shack.

They were rolling lazily in their sleeping bags, cigarettes between their fingers. The shack full of haze from all the cigarettes and blunts they’d smoked.

Outside was upheaval; the sound of hooves made the shack’s wood vibrate.

Merrick turned to Jackson, ‘We might’ve got ourselves a problem, Jack.’ Smoke came out of Merrick’s mouth as he spoke, and they both started to laugh.

The sound outside grew closer and their laughter ceased abruptly. Merrick crept from his sleepin’ bag to the little window and looked outside.

‘Three men and four ‘orses.’

‘Why four ‘orses if there are only three men?’ Jackson asked.

Merrick turned to Jackson, ‘Meybe one of ‘em is invisible!’ They started to laugh again when there was a knock at the door.

‘’Ere, they may be after me.’ Merrick squinted through the little window, ‘Yea, they’re probably after me.’

‘Why? What ya done?’

Merrick waved a hand dismissively, ‘Never mind that, I need’t hide.’

‘They’ll recognise your flamin’ ‘orse.’ Jackson said nervously, ‘Anyone could recognise that bleedin’ ‘orse.’

There was a loud crashing sound, the wooden door splintered, and a man in big boots trounced in.

Merrick shot to the back of the room in the shadows, bollock naked. He crept behind the unfinished wooden wall that jutted out.

‘Where is ‘e?’ The man that had pounded his way in asked, ‘Where is Merrick Bowman Jr?’

Jackson stood in his boxers and t-shirt, hurriedly getting dressed and slipping as both his legs ended up in one leg of his trousers. ‘Fuck!’ He spat, lying on his back with his legs up in the air.

‘I’m not interested in you; slow yasel’ down. Am only after Merrick!’

‘I don’t know anyone by that name!’ Jackson squirmed, still on the floor.

‘Course ya do!’ The man jutted his chin, ‘Are ya callin’ the barman across the road a liar?’

‘Well, ah know a man who might or might not have been named Eric,’ Jackson drawled, ‘But ah never got ‘is name.’

The man laughed.

‘Stop playin’ t’ fool. Ya got ‘is ‘orse in that stable of yours!’ The man shook his head and put his foot on Jackson’s chest, spat brown liquid next to his head, ‘Ya wanna be careful wit’ men like Merrick.’

‘Oh?’ Jackson said, lifting his head shakily from the floor and looking at the man’s boot on his chest.

‘Yea, ‘e’s a perv and a killer.’

‘Well, ah wouldn’t know about that.’ Jackson tried innocently.

‘We got an ‘orse short of a man.’ The man jutted his chin, ‘We thought since Merrick loves his ‘orses ser much, we should bring ‘im’t ‘orse for ‘im to shoot dead ‘imsel.’

‘Why would ya want ‘im to do that?’

‘’Cause we know how much it would pain ‘im!’ The man laughed.

‘The ‘orse or Merrick?’

‘Merrick of course.’

‘I’m sure a bullet to the leg might pain ‘im too, sir.’

‘An’ I’m sure a bullet to that beloved ‘orse of his will be pain to ‘im too!’

‘Am sure a bullet to ‘is leg will be pain enough, sir.’ Jackson continued in protest.

Merrick peered around the wall, hands up in question, looking across at the shadow of Jackson, ‘The fuck?’ He mouthed.

‘Anyway,’ Jackson continued, ‘Why would ya want ‘im to kill one of ya ‘orses? Is it ill? Is it sufferin’?’

‘No the ‘orse is jus’ fine. But ah jus’ wanna see the pain reckon on Merrick’s face.

‘Why…Why did this Eric chap kill one of ya men, then?’

‘Merrick,’ The man corrected him, ‘As ah said, Merrick is a perv. You can’t rationalise why ‘e did anythin’

Merrick reached for his gun and stepped out from behind the wall.

‘Jameson,’ He smirked.

‘Merrick!’ Jameson beamed, he took his boot off Jackson’s chest and spat another load of brown liquid next to his head.

Seeing the gun, he held up his hands, ‘Now, now. No need fer this.’

Jameson looked Merrick up and down and laughed, ‘Christ! A sight for sore…’

Jackson stood and tapped him on the shoulder, and Jameson turned for only a millisecond, but it was enough for Merrick to swing a pillow in front of the gun and shoot him in the head.

Feathers floated around the room, and Jameson dropped to the wooden floorboard. Merrick grabbed at his legs and pulled him into the shadows of the shack behind the wall.

‘The fuck is this shit?’ Jackson said, now pointing a pistol towards Merrick again

‘Put ya damn gun down!’ Merrick told him in no uncertain terms, turning his back to Jackson and putting his own gun back in the holster.

‘You’re a killer!’ Jackson spat.

‘Self-defence!’

‘It wasn’t, he…’ Jackson shook his head, ‘Anyway I ent on about ‘im!’ His finger was on the trigger, sweat dripped down his face.

‘’E killed someone dear to me,’ Merrick turned to face him, ‘A man I loved very much.’

Jackson looked over his shoulder at the other men they could hear drinking and talking outside. ‘What are we gonna do ‘bout them?’ He said, waving the gun in Merrick’s face.

‘’Opefully, nothin.’ Merrick replied.

‘But…’

‘They’re gettin’ blind drunk!’ Merrick told him, ‘When they’re pissin’ themsel’ we’ll know we can get Tucker and ride on out of ‘ere, and they’ll be useless.’

Jackson’s hand dropped to his side, ‘Why’d they kill ya friend?’

‘’Cause ‘e was me boyfrien’’

‘If they killed I’m fer that, why ent they kill you too?’

‘’Cuz I wasn’t there when they killed ‘im.’

Part two: There goes the Wub

It was pitch black as they rolled over to sleep; Merrick listened to the howl of the wind against the door. The distant hooting of owls sharing the same soundscape.

‘Say, can I…Can I…I ne’er felt gills on a human ‘fore.’

Merrick rolled in his sleeping back to face the dark lump that was Jackson, ‘Is that what ya got me in ‘ere fer? T’ cop a feel?’

Jackson switched on the torch between them, ‘Fuck no! I ent like that! I ent no pervert.’

‘The lady doth protest too much.’ Merrick smirked.

Jackson baulked and slid up in his sleeping bag, ‘I shoulda ne’er asked. I apologise, sir.’

Merrick shook his head, ‘It’s fine, Jackson! Come on then,’ Merrick leaned over the torch light, casting a huge shadow on the walls, ‘Have a feel.’

Jackson ran his tongue over his teeth, ‘Ya sure?’

‘Yea. Curious folk are better than pre-judgement, fella.’

Jackson reached over hesitatingly, running a finger over the slits in his gills, ‘Wow.’

He spat, ‘Wow!’ He shook his head, ‘Do they, do they work, like?’

‘Nah. non-functioning.’

The wind filled in a gap of silence between them, along with the ‘too-wit’ of a female owl very close by.

‘What’d ya think is wrong wit’ bein’ like that?’ Merrick finally asked.

Jackson was still looking wide-eyed in amazement, his finger tracing down the slits on Merrick’s neck, ‘What?’ He asked with a frown.

Merrick leaned further in, ‘Ya know, like…’ Merrick kissed Jackson on the lips gently, ‘like that.’

‘N- No…I ent.’ Jackson stuttered. ‘And you shouldn’t be goin’ roun’ doin’ that t’ men!

Ya’ll get yasle’ kilt’

‘Why? Are you gonna kill me?’

Jackson swallowed audibly, ‘No.’

‘Well, that’s good then.’ Merrick smiled across at him.

They lay on their backs in their sleeping bags, back into the blackness of the night; the wind continued to howl and bang at the door menacingly.

Jackson swallowed away something that haunted his mind before sighing as though he had resigned himself to some disagreeable fate.

Merrick kept his eyes closed, listening to the rustling coming from beside him, then the purr of a zip coming undone, the padding of hands and knees crawling against the grain of the wooden floor.

Then he felt it, the breeze of exposed skin. He opened his right eye and was met with Jackson looking over him.

‘What’s this?’

‘I don’t know.’ Jackson confessed as he ran his hand down from Merricks gills to his chest and ran his fingers through his chest hair.

Merrick strained his neck and kissed Jackson, pulling him in closer.

‘I didn’t think you…’ Merrick started.

‘I don’t know,’ Jackson whispered, ‘so jus’…’

‘Shut up.’ Merrick finished the thought.

The wind had since calmed down, and the floorboards creaked underneath their weight.

‘I always wonder wit’ men like yasel” Jackson started, his head resting against Merrick’s chest, ‘Are ya jus’ a man lookin’ fer anythin’ thee can get?’

‘What do ya mean?’ Merrick frowned.

‘If thee ent no woman around, ya jus’ take a fella like me to replace ‘er, like.’

‘Men like me?’ Merrick looked down at Jackson’s face, ‘more than one?’ He grinned, ‘But ya ent that way!’ He laughed.

‘Shut up!’ Jackson retorted, ‘Jus’ answer the damn question!’

‘What makes ya think you’re a good replacement fer a woman?’ Merrick asked, amused.

Jackson slid out from the sleeping bag and crept toward his own.

‘Anyway, ya think I couldn’t get me a woman if I wanted one?’

‘No, no! I ent sayin’ any such thing!’

Outside, time ticked away with the sound of rain dripping from the shack’s roof, cigarette embers marking down the minutes between Merrick’s fingers.

Just as Jackson had started to drift off to sleep, Merrick piped up, ‘What wus that ’bout ya goin’ t’ cidy?’

‘I ent goin’.’ Jackson replied sleepily.

‘Ya won the loddery?’

Jackson shifted in his sleeping bag, ‘Ah might ‘ave.’ But even if I ‘ave, I ent goin.” Jackson sat up, his back against the wall, ‘I wouldn’t go there ‘less I wus goin’ down t’ shoot ’em all down.’

‘Ya don’t wanna do that.’ Merrick told him

‘Ya bet I do!’ Jackson replied, ‘Look ‘ow they ‘ave us live! Those purebloods got it comin”

‘First someone teks ya eye, then ya tek theirs, then what are ya left with?’ Merrick asks the darkness.

Jackson frowned, ‘Say, what?’

‘Ya left blind! Thee take ya eye, you take theirs, they take your other eye, you take their other eye. Then ya fight blind and ya die.’ Merrick puffed up a pillow and clasped a hand behind his head.

‘I’d fight those fuckers blind if I ‘ad t’.’ Jackson replied.

‘I’m tellin’ ya,’ Merrick looked up at the ceiling, listening to the rain drip, ‘it never works out ser well.’

”ow’d you know?’

‘Never mind wut I might’ve done.’

Jackson squinted his eyes to see the shape of the man beside him on the floor in the dark. ”Ave ya kilt a man?’

Merrick got out of his sleeping bag, ”ere let me show ya somethin,’ He grabbed Jackson’s hand and pulled him up off the floor, ‘Come on.’

‘Wait, wait,’ Jackson loosened his hand from Merrick’s grip and put on a pair of boxers before following him outside.

‘Ya see down there all thum cidy lights?’ Merrick pointed down the cobbled street at the distant lights.

‘Yea.’

Merrick looked up at the sky, and Jackson followed his gaze, ‘Ya think thee can see those stars down there?’

Stars twinkled through transparent wispy clouds, the scars of scattered rain showers moving through the sky to reveal the brilliant void of space.

Jackson shrugged.

Merrick shook his head, ‘Thee cant. They’ve blown themselves up wit’ so much artificial light down there they forgodden real stars exist.’

A Wub hurried past, making a bubbling sound that they made when running.

‘Ent it interestin’ wut thee left behind?’ Jackson asked prompted by the sound.

‘Ya not one of those that think thee left ’em behind on purpose, are ya?’

Jackson shrugged again, ‘Mebe.’

‘Nah,’ Merrick said, ‘I think it’s like ‘ow we ‘umans introduce new species to new lands from ships and t’ like accidentally.’

‘Except the Wubs are alien.’ Jackson said.

‘So are t’other species when they arrive on new land. Anyway,’ Merrick took a piss where he stood, ‘They ent alien anymore.’

”Ow’d ya figure?’ Jackson asked, looking at the butt of Merrick as he relieved himself and he grinned, ‘ent ya a bit cold?’

They lay back down in their sleeping bags, hands clasped behind their heads.

‘So,’ Jackson started, ”Ow’d ya figure?’

‘Figure what?’

‘The alien thing, the Wubs.’

‘Thee preddy much naturalised now ent thee?’ Merrick said, ‘Like, back in’t day when Romans introduced non-native trees and ‘t’ like. Anyway,’

Jackson heard the floorboard creaking and then felt a weight on him, ‘I figure ya shut up wit’ the questions now,’ Merrick told him as his hands roamed between Jackson’s legs.

Part one: There goes the Wub

A wub scurried past; Tucker whinnied uneasily on his feet and waved his head back and forth.

‘Easy, easy!’ Merrick whispered.

The wub scurried into the surrounding foliage and out of sight.

‘Easy there, Tuck! Easy!’ Merrick continued to whisper gently into Tucker’s ear; his ear twitched at the sound, his hooves firmly setting themselves on the track.

Merrick and Tucker sped back into a canter until they reached the maw of the edge land, back into the human wilderness.

A line of dilapidated shacks stood crooked on either side of the dust road. They stopped before a couple standing outside one such shack, the woman looking wide-eyed at Tucker.

‘’e’s got thum devil eyes, ‘e as, Colt.’ She turned to her husband, ‘I ent ‘angin’ ‘bout fer no devil eyed ‘orse!’

Colt rolled his eyes, ‘The ‘orse is a beaut! Ne’er sen one like it!’

Merrick dismounted and straightened the collar on his coat, up and around his neck, before holding out a hand for the woman.

She looked around shiftily before taking his hand gingerly.

‘Why,’ he lifted her hand to his lips, ‘what a ‘andsome ‘usband yer got there.’

The woman’s hand fell limp from Merricks.

A little child peered shyly around the shack door; Merrick smiled and winked. The girl withdrew back behind the creaking wooden door.

The woman’s mouth gaped open, ‘yer what? Ya got eyes fer mah man?’

Colt’s moustache rose with a snigger, ‘’e sure ‘avin’ yer on!’

‘I ent no kidder when it comes to ‘ansome men like yasel’’

Colt’s moustache flickered instantly into a frown, ‘yer what?’  I aint that way inclined,’ He spat, ‘Now if you dunt mind!’ He turned, shooing him away with a wave of the hand, ‘Leave us outta ya perversions!’ He put an arm around his wife and ushered her back into their ruined shack.

‘Well, Tucker, looks like it’s jus’ you an’ I,’ He winked at the sparkling blue eye before climbing back into the saddle, sending dust up in their wake.

Distant street lights from the cities zoomedpast, like stars sparkling through the gaps in the trees.

They came upon a street that looked as though it had just been sketched into existence. Wooden buildings stood in the shadows of the night.

He looked over his shoulder at the distant city lights, then up at the sky, ‘At least we got real stars,’ He patted Tucker, his fingers trailing through his white mane.

Tucker’s hooves clopped loudly on the cobbled stones of the next street. Merrick hitched him up outside the only building with lights on inside.

‘Now, ya know the drill, Tuck! I gonna leave ya fer a liddle while, but ah’ll be reet on in there,’ he pointed at the door to the bar.

Tucker nodded his head down, ‘That’s a good boy!’ Merrick said, stroking down Tucker’s long face. ‘Yea, good boy!’ Tuckers ears twitched at Merrick’s voice soothingly.

Merrick stepped into the shabbily built pub, only two other patrons were inside.

The head of the man behind the bar jerked up to the sound of the doors closing behind him, ‘Nearly dropped off there!’ He laughed a toothless laugh.

‘Whiskey on the rocks.’ Merrick slid the coins across the bar.

‘Ya know, not many left now,’ The barman told him as he slid a glass of whiskey across the bar.

‘Yea? Thats what they want.’ Merrick sipped the whiskey down.

‘Truth is, it’s us that got it fer’t better!’

‘I been tinkin’ ‘bout the same.’ Merrick nodded to the barman.

‘Yea. Men like you come in all’t time an’ say that. Then you win the loddery one day and…’ The man raised his brows, ‘Suddenly, they up in’t cidies, thinkin’ they cheatin’ death.’ 

‘Well, I wouldn’t worry ‘bout that. Ah don’t play the damn loddery!’ Merrick  replied.

The barman laughed, his tongue sucked against his gums, ‘The best way, the best way!’ He patted Merrick on the shoulder.

Another man entered the bar, and the barman laughed at the arrival, ‘The busiest night of me life, eh?’ He asked in jest. ‘I gonna be rollin’ in it!,’ He said, ‘Hey,’ He nudged at Merrick with his elbow, ‘I could be goin’t’ the cidies yet! Buy mesel’ a few clones, make out like I’m cheatin’ death!’

Merrick nodded and sipped the rest of his whiskey.

The man who had just arrived approached the bar and sat beside him.

‘Rum ‘n’ Coke, please.’ The man looked at Merrick , ‘That your ‘orse back there?’ He gestured with his thumb over his shoulder.

Merrick  turned to look over his shoulder, ‘It might be, ‘pends whose askin’?’

The man held his palms up, ‘Ah mean no trouble, Sir. Jus’ that is one special ‘orse ya got yasel’ there. Ah wouldn’t ‘ave ‘sen ‘im if it weren’t fer ‘is white mane!’

‘Yea, I won the ‘orse loddery, ya could say.’

The man slapped his thighs, ‘Ya don’t say, man!’ He whistled.

‘I thought you went out t’ the cidy?’ The barman jutted his chin as he asked.

‘Nah, I ent goin’ that hell ‘ole without a gun!’ He smiled.

The man looked over his shoulder, out the window, ‘That ‘orse sure is mighty fine!’ He whistled, ‘’E even got them blue eyes!’

‘Jus’ the one.’ Merrick told him.

‘Eh?’

‘Jus’ the one blue eye.’

‘Well, ones enough for me!’ The man grinned, ‘Ones enough fer me t’ fall right on over there in love!’

‘it’s the blue eyes that get ya, is it?’ Merrick asked him.

The man laughed and drank up his rum in one swift gulp. ‘Say,’ He started, ‘Ya ent plannin’ on ‘avin’ ‘im tied up out there all night, are ya?’

Merrick  held up his whiskey glass, ‘Don’t know ‘bout that, ‘pends ‘ow long this place teks to throw me out!’

‘Nah,’ The man shook his head, ‘We can’t be ‘avin’ that! That ‘orse is too damn fine a specimen to be out in’t cold of the night, like! And I bet ya there’ll be men out there eager af’er ‘im!’

‘Well, I got nothin’ else I could do wit’ ‘im, so, let them try.’

‘Nah! I won’t ‘ave it!’ He slid off the stool, ‘Say, why don’t ya put ‘im in mah ol’ stable fer’t night. And say ya could crash at mine, sleep on’t floor.’ He held up his hands, ‘No luxuries at mine, mind,’ He looked Merrick up and down, ‘But the floor’ll do fer a man lik yasel’ I reckon!’

Merrick  mulled this over for a moment, ‘Well, first, at least give me a name.’

‘Jackson Whitlock.’ Jackson nodded across to Merrick, ‘Yasel’?

Merrick  smiled wistfully, ‘Should ya be invitin’ a man ‘fore ya even know ‘is name?’

Jackson shrugged, ‘Well, tell us yer name and we won’t be strangers forever.’

‘A man can be called many names, don’t mean ya know ‘im.’

‘Reet, wise arse.’

‘It’s Merrick , though.’ Merrick  held out a hand, ‘Nice to meet ya, Jackson.’

Jackson shook his hand firmly.

Merrick  slid off the barstool, ‘Shame ah got brown eyes, ent it eh?’ Merrick walked out of the bar.

Jackson frowned and followed him outside. ‘So we gettin’ this fine boy to the stables, or what?’

They walked Tucker across the road and into the stable, ‘Ow comes ya got an empty stable?’ Merrick  looked around at the bales of hay inside the hastily built place, ‘If it can be called a stable.’

‘I used’t’ ‘ave a horse.’

‘Used’t’?’

‘’E up and died on me dint ‘e?’

Merrick looked at Tucker and stroked his long face, a feeling of dread at the thought of losing him swelling his heart. ‘Yea, ya ‘ate to lose ‘em’

‘Ent that right!’

Once they’d got Tucker in and comfortable, Merrick followed Jackson into the wooden shack beside it.

‘Luckily for you,’ Jackson said as he rummaged at the back of a room behind a bit of unfinished wall that jutted out near the toilet, ‘I got two sleepin’ bags!’ Jackson threw a green sleepin’ bag at Merrick and took out a blue one for himself.

‘Say, ya think they’ll be back?’ Jackson asked casually.

They sat back to back while they each undressed.

‘I think they came wit’ indifference and left wit’ indifference.’ Merrick replied, taking his socks off.

Merrick stood from his sleeping bag and piled his clothes neatly on a wooden rocking chair to the left of the toilet.

‘Wow,’ Jackson looked Merrick’s naked body up and down, ‘Ya ent shy at all, Sir!’ His eyes drifted down to Merrick’s feet, ‘Let’s see what ya got,’ he said, ‘Webbed feet! Me too!’

Merrick got into the green sleeping bag beside Jackson on the floor, a torch light lit up between them.

Jackson gasped now he had a better view of Merrick in the light, ‘Gills!’ He pointed to his neck, ‘I didn’t think anyone ‘ad ‘em! Thought it were a myth!’

‘Well, ‘ere I am, your mythical bein’ in’t flesh!’

Poetry off the cuff: I’m angry and sad today.

Life is tough
but what the fuck for?
there has to be a point to it all
but alas, I find none
It’s true; we’re all Sisyphus
we just keep rolling on
‘well, looks like the oceans heating up. Let’s stop oil.’
‘Quite right.’
‘Anyway, I gotta go now. Goodbye.’
the sound of their car doors closing, an afront of our awareness
car door locks and all is forgotten.

But this is the machine we were given
what can we do instead?
Catch a train?
But the trains are never on time
and they’re barely fit for purpose
a 6 hour’s journey google map says
to use a train
to a place only one hour away.

What the fuck am I to do?
Stay put in my room
never leave lest I be a hypocrite
this cognitive dissonance keeps me up at night
but I’m trapped in this machine
I was born into.

Look at us, trapped in our iron lungs!
Fuck, I don’t know how much more I can take
everything is rotting away
The heat masks the cold stark truth of these summer days
the sun rays getting to our brains
all that vitamin D and those endorphins
smoothing out our brains
with these illusions that we’re doing a-fucking-okay.

I don’t know any more than you
what we can do
I just know we can’t trust the higher-ups
rolling in the green
not the lush kind we’re chopping down
but the numbers that gets recycled
by the same few hands up there, up top.







Poetry off the cuff: We forgot the sun returns to us, eventually.

The red glow of cigarettes Marked the sunrise
the sun pulled up last night’s rain Into a mist
we tried to mimic the weeds
the way they swayed to the breeze yet held strong
Rooted to place.

Then came the arrival of goodbyes
among the songbirds
singing greetings.
we had whiled away the hours
till we had no skin in this play
bored and hollowed from each other

We could never be like the weeds
we chased the sun too much Instead of sitting in place.

Poetry off the cuff: A Snippet of time

The birds perched on the powerlines
little musical notes

People sped by in their exoskeletal suits
hands-on wheels and eyes on their pursuits

Weeds grew toward the sun
only opening when the rays would meet them

A man sped by with a mower
and the flowers bled pollen

The birds sang songs of blood and sex
a territorial language penetrating the sky

Traffic lights glowed red
as did the embers of time

Another sunset
before the next sunrise