I want to lift my face off
so you can see the dark void behind
nothing can fill it
but the energy I seek out from you
call me Mr vampiric narcicuss
I am repulsed by your every move
yet I can’t help but watch you with awe
and you twist my brain till it spirals

Lost in these spiralling matters
I see my empty expression again
waiting to be painted into something resembling a human
I’m not like you
I’m not human in the core of me

I’m a monster
born
not created.